Where I’ve been…

Ironically, I posted in March 2019 about an unintentional break from the blog. That break was only for a month or so. And now here we are, a full 10 months since my last post. Again, not intentional but I think we can call this one a legit break. But you know what? Sometimes life takes precedence.

For those who don’t follow my social media attached to this blog (which I have kept up), you’re probably wondering where I’ve been. There are many reasons I’ve not been writing and they all kind of snowballed quickly.

Not long after my last post, the most debilitating case of vertigo hit me thanks to an extremely stressful travel experience, the pressure changes of flying, plus being susceptible to it. I’ve had it twice before but never this severe. It impacted every single part of my life. I became a shell of the person I am and struggled to still manage LIFE. I missed only a week of work but still worked through some incredibly hard symptoms and horrific days. I quickly realized that work and my day to day was about all my brain could handle. I had no brain power left for creativity outside of that.

And so…the blog fell away.

I’d go weeks with symptoms then weeks without. And it’s those weeks without where I chose to focus on and really enjoy my life and the moments when I was well. Plus it was summertime at that point, so I focused on my health, family and favorite time of year.

Then? I got pregnant with baby boy #2 and as all the mamas out there can attest – my brain became even more mush. I struggled from the beginning thanks to hormones and all the shifts your body makes even more quickly the 2^nd time around – anxiety, fibromyalgia pain with no relief, migraines and vertigo flares. One of those alone is too much but pile them together and add in the worry you have in early pregnancy, plus caring for my toddler – it just about did me in. I was mentally and physically exhausted – and still am – but just starting to feel a bit better overall despite the vertigo still making its presence known to this day.

I’ve thought about this blog constantly during my time away. I have a lot to say but sometimes think I put too much pressure on myself to have these largely impactful posts. That’s kept me from posting too. I’ve come to realize that that’s not always going to be the case. And I need to be okay with that, give myself some grace and just go with it. So here I am, back at it. No promises, though, for how often I’ll post or if I’ll take another break. We’ll see!

Bottom line, writing here is therapeutic for me and I do think some of what I share can possibly help others. I may not have many followers or readers, but I’m determined to keep this going for me and maybe that one person I may reach. I won’t have a set posting schedule or expectations, but I do have a lot of posts planned and hope you stick around to see what’s to come.